Two years ago today was a very special day in this household. It was the day that we finally became a family of five. If you don't know our story, you can see it on my other blog here.
Life has been a bit unsettled lately and while God has definitely given me peace about much of it, He has allowed me to see something that I hadn't really seen before. I see it in the eyes of my kids; in their laughs; in their tears; especially in their squeezes and kisses. It's the realization that, no matter what happens, we are a family (now a family of six I might add!). No matter where we go or what we do, we will all be together for at least the next 14 years, Lord willing. I like that. I love that.
The journey we were on this time 2 1/2 years ago was rough. Much of the time the road was rocky. Many times I lost hope. But then God would be the amazing God that He is and would give me glimmers of promise. I can't fully explain how watching our two girls be so frail and so sick has affected me. How the pain that I wasn't able to care for them, nurse them or even bond with them is still etched in me. Every once in a while, that pain rushes to the surface and I'm struck that it's still there. I'm finally at a point now that I want to turn that pain into celebration. Like it or not, that pain was a part of my life and will always be a part of me.
But here's the thing - so will belting out Disney songs with Maurah. So is tickling and giggling with Hayden. Playing playdough, pushing swings, dancing, snuggling, kissing owies, cooking together - all of these are joys. Joys that I need to be thankful for every day because it was only just 2 1/2 years ago that these joys could have been taken before I had even known one of them. I want to remember the road we've traveled with the girls and really, just celebrate our anniversary with them. They don't know the difference but I do. May 23rd and June 6th of 2008 will always be special days.
Here's a video....celebrate with us!
(You'll want to pause the automatic music.)