Life has been a bit unsettled lately and while God has definitely given me peace about much of it, He has allowed me to see something that I hadn't really seen before. I see it in the eyes of my kids; in their laughs; in their tears; especially in their squeezes and kisses. It's the realization that, no matter what happens, we are a family (now a family of six I might add!). No matter where we go or what we do, we will all be together for at least the next 14 years, Lord willing. I like that. I love that.
The journey we were on this time 2 1/2 years ago was rough. Much of the time the road was rocky. Many times I lost hope. But then God would be the amazing God that He is and would give me glimmers of promise. I can't fully explain how watching our two girls be so frail and so sick has affected me. How the pain that I wasn't able to care for them, nurse them or even bond with them is still etched in me. Every once in a while, that pain rushes to the surface and I'm struck that it's still there. I'm finally at a point now that I want to turn that pain into celebration. Like it or not, that pain was a part of my life and will always be a part of me.
But here's the thing - so will belting out Disney songs with Maurah. So is tickling and giggling with Hayden. Playing playdough, pushing swings, dancing, snuggling, kissing owies, cooking together - all of these are joys. Joys that I need to be thankful for every day because it was only just 2 1/2 years ago that these joys could have been taken before I had even known one of them. I want to remember the road we've traveled with the girls and really, just celebrate our anniversary with them. They don't know the difference but I do. May 23rd and June 6th of 2008 will always be special days.
Here's a video....celebrate with us!
(You'll want to pause the automatic music.)
2 Years Ago Today from Megan Manne on Vimeo.
3 comments:
Let the tears flow.... Oh how he loves us! Amazing, beautiful. Miracles. Can't find the words... Thanks for sharing the video!
Megan! I rejoice with you! I can't believe its been 2 years. The twins are absolutely adorable! Love their curly hair and beautiful smiles. Cole is handsome as ever and Laina is so precious! Praying God brings healing for you and the girls from the wounds of those first months of separation, uncertainty, and crisis. I love watching God grow your family, and your heart for Him and your kids is precious. By the way, your "boring" post was not boring at all...those of us who are past the stage of life you are in LOVE to hear about the daily little things that come with a houseful of little ones! I think of you and pray for you often...Love, "Miss Tracie" :)
Oh sweet girls! Rejoicing in God's goodness!! How He LOVES...
Post a Comment