I think we're okay.

In fact, I know we're okay.

Thanks to all of you who commented or sent me a message on Facebook or an email.  This blog is my main outlet for the realness of our life and I can't tell you how much it means to get your encouragement, support and prayers.

Sunday went pretty well, actually.  Well, as well as you can expect when you completely stun over 400 people with the news that you will no longer be an active part of their lives in three weeks.  I am thankful that I was able to pull aside Sarah, one of my girls from my small group, to tell her in private.  We cried and cried but she was so incredibly understanding.  And - get this - she actually said to me, "You have been teaching me to follow God no matter where He leads for the last 4 years so if you didn't do that now, what you've taught me would be completely hypocritical."  Inside, I was giddy she said this.  All I had wanted was this and I wrote about it here.  The sweetness of God answering that prayer for me through her words was almost too much.  I started bawling all over again.

Tomorrow night is our fall kick-off for youth group and I couldn't be more excited just to be surrounded by these high schoolers who have been one of the biggest parts of my life for the last four years.  The memories are countless and their lives are so precious to me.  Yes, even the kid that burps so loudly, you hear him on the opposite end of the church (and no, I'm not making him up.  He's got a name and I'm thinking of him right now!).  Right now, for me, that's love speak.  Yep.  I'm sick.  I've got it bad.

Aside from that, we're just continuing to pray.  And pray.  And pray.  It's such a tender balance to wait on God yet take steps of faith.  If you do one of those too much, you could completely miss what He's really wanting you to see.  So we're stepping gingerly and waiting fiercely. 

Sarah was so cute because she said, "Is it wrong for me to not want you to go to another youth group?  I feel like we're your kids and you're ours.  I don't want you to be anyone else's!"  No, Sarah, that's not wrong at all.  I am actually feeling the same thing!  We'll see where God leads.  He's always been faithful and always provided. 

Psalm 37:25 - I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread.

Thank you, Lord, for your goodness to us.  Your love is better than all the riches of the world.


~joanne said... I read this post..I thought...She's so good...She's so calm...She's so trusting...She's a rock.

But, then I was reminded that you are human and I'm sure this isn't as easy as your blog reads.

Just as easily as we read the Bible stories in hindsight. It was not that easy for those first was hard for Joseph to see the end of His story. Did David really know the future?

It's easy for me to say to you "you're gonna be fine"...but for you, I'm sure, not so easy! I will continue to uphold you in prayer!Luck for us, we know WHO holds the future!

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart; do not depend on your OWN understanding. Seek his will in ALL you do, and he will direct your paths! Awesome!

Anonymous said...

Megan....Because I have often been where you are, I am aware of the emotional ups & downs....Along with my life verse Prov. 3:5-6 there have been a few praise songs that have encouraged me as well:

"Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
Then the things of earth will grow strangly dim,
In the light of His glory & grace".

Another is:

"He didn't bring you this far to leave you,
He didn't teach you to swim to let you drown
He didn't build His home in us to move away
He didn't lift us up to let us down."

The one thing I KNOW FOR SURE...YOU are in the palm of God's Hand and He WILL lead you!

God Bless Now and Forever More-Chris Lubitz

Faders said...

Megan, we keep on praying. I'm so glad you feel the love of so many during this time.

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