I think we're okay.
In fact, I know we're okay.
Thanks to all of you who commented or sent me a message on Facebook or an email. This blog is my main outlet for the realness of our life and I can't tell you how much it means to get your encouragement, support and prayers.
Sunday went pretty well, actually. Well, as well as you can expect when you completely stun over 400 people with the news that you will no longer be an active part of their lives in three weeks. I am thankful that I was able to pull aside Sarah, one of my girls from my small group, to tell her in private. We cried and cried but she was so incredibly understanding. And - get this - she actually said to me, "You have been teaching me to follow God no matter where He leads for the last 4 years so if you didn't do that now, what you've taught me would be completely hypocritical." Inside, I was giddy she said this. All I had wanted was this and I wrote about it here. The sweetness of God answering that prayer for me through her words was almost too much. I started bawling all over again.
Tomorrow night is our fall kick-off for youth group and I couldn't be more excited just to be surrounded by these high schoolers who have been one of the biggest parts of my life for the last four years. The memories are countless and their lives are so precious to me. Yes, even the kid that burps so loudly, you hear him on the opposite end of the church (and no, I'm not making him up. He's got a name and I'm thinking of him right now!). Right now, for me, that's love speak. Yep. I'm sick. I've got it bad.
Aside from that, we're just continuing to pray. And pray. And pray. It's such a tender balance to wait on God yet take steps of faith. If you do one of those too much, you could completely miss what He's really wanting you to see. So we're stepping gingerly and waiting fiercely.
Sarah was so cute because she said, "Is it wrong for me to not want you to go to another youth group? I feel like we're your kids and you're ours. I don't want you to be anyone else's!" No, Sarah, that's not wrong at all. I am actually feeling the same thing! We'll see where God leads. He's always been faithful and always provided.
Psalm 37:25 - I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread.
Thank you, Lord, for your goodness to us. Your love is better than all the riches of the world.